'm sorry I let you down

People always brag about being let down.. I agree it hurts to be let down by someone whom you trusted.. But one thing, its even more awful to realise that you've let someone down.. I did.. There have been things that hurt me.. hurt me like hell.. but nothing like this happened ever before.. may be it did.. but I realised it this time.. My God.. its something I'd regret for the rest of my life..I thought I'd grown up.. I considered myself old enough to decide things on my own.. I considered myself mature enough that I did not need suggestions anymore.. Well, I was wrong.. Though I did not know what was right for me, I sure did realise what was not right for me.. I might not have made the right decision.. But I know it'll make things better.. Definitely better.. I have always wanted to do things to please you.. To make you smile.. To make you proud for having me.. Whenever someone asked who my inspiration was, I'd not mention anyone in particular but would silently think of you.. I always wanted to grow into someone like you.. Tomorrow I want to be like what you are.. I know I won't be upto the mark.. but all I want to try is grow into you.. All the while doing things so as to please you.. Make you happy.. None but you.. But today you stand let down.. Let down by Me, whom you always counted upon, whom you always believed.. Whom you always dreamt about..Whom you always pinned your hopes on.. I'm sure I'll make up for this.. Time will heal all.. I will come up well.. But today.. All I can do to wipe this guilt off my mind.. and wipe those silent tears you shed.. is apologise.. I'm sorry for letting you down.. I'm really sorry for letting you down.. Dad, forgive me..Someday, I'll make you proud..

I know my dad'll never read this post.. This is all I wanted to tell him.. let him know.. Some day I'll make him proud..

Love

Vignesh..:)

Long day..

I'm exhausted.. well totally .. this is supposed to be a sunday and still it was the busiest day of the week.. I had my lab.. worst of all the things that happened today!! Stupid most experiment..

Manged to get the output.. Went to coll at eleven.. Was made to wait till one.. Was sitting all alone . with none around me within a radius of 50 metres.. (Thanks to my friends!!) And then there was this stupid lab.. Canteen closed.. No water,nothing to have a bite.. ****ing hot weather.. Sunday.. Trains crowded like hell.. Lesser frequency.. Tired tired tired..

I wish I could be a computer which can refresh with a single click.. Wish I were a camel.. Wish i were anything but me.. And once again.. I'm exhausted..

Cheers(Cheerless)..

Vignesh..:)

365 days of separation..

Its been more than a year.. feels like decades have passed after leaving school.. I fins this hard to type and harder to digest.. A month back I happened to be at the school for a function.. Well.. It felt like going back home.. (NO exaggeration) Somehow I realised the place was no longer mine.. Irksome feeling.. getting into college with colorful dreams and high expectations what I met with was a strange... strange world full of strangers all over.. I was like a bird with nowhere to go.. Friends played a strong part in my life,they still do and forever will.. I happened to get only a few at the new place.. The first week after boards I woke up everyday with forwards that said stay in touch,don forget,life's all over.... They meant nothing to me as it was just a week and the feeling took some time to settle in.. Higher secondary classes were the most memorable ones.. Most emotional and the days where we found who were the ones to stay..Few memories that would stand the test of time..

~New students all over the class..

~ Those lunch hours.. Last bench..

~ Mornings where we used to go in search of desks..

~ Hari n Kiran versus KP ;)

~ Our cricket team.. :D

~ Computer science classes..

~Bhargav vs Com sci ma'm

~ Mini's physics classes.. :D

~ Math hour :)

~Rajan sir's classes.. he is God :)

Words stand as a barrier.. couldn write anything more.. I don really need to.. Those of us who shared the most beautiful memories of our lifetime would understand and recollect far more than wat was told here..

Cheers.. :)

Vignesh..

Dadagiri all over again :)

First match of IPL - 3,

KKR Up against the defending champs DC,

KKR lost the toss,

Put on to bat first,

Wicket first ball,

Captain himself going out for not in the same over,

4 wickets down at the end of five overs,

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Final result..

KKR win!!!

All credits to Sourav Ganguly.. the Knights' 'rider'

It was simply great to watch him come back as a captain.. The way he stood for the toss.. The way he said "We're hoping for the best" .. The way he walked into the field.. The way he adjusts his helmet.. Changes the field.. Switches bowlers.. Appeals for a wicket.. Smiled at Ravi during the presentation.. Whoa man.. Sourav's the best!! 

I was all excited to watch him play after a year.. Such a commanding player.. A smart captain and a pro at it.. One of the best players India has ever produced and the peak reason Kolkata should be proud of.. :)

A career of ups and downs.. So many people outrightly showing hatred and opposition  yet with a million faithful fans Dada took Indian cricket's graph to its peak.. Though Azhar remains as India's smartest cap.. producing a fairly high winning record.. Ganguly remained consistent,supportive and most importantly delivered under pressure.. Came to the rescue of the team at the twelfth hour.. be it Kenya or Australia.. Sourav approached them alike.. Analysed the game.. made calculations..Won tournaments.. Took India to the finale of the biggest event in 2003.. Statistics stand tall.. Record books speak volumes and yet he's the humble son of the soil.. 

MY  hero :)

Kore bole tho jeet bole..:)

Vignesh.. :)