STFU

My life sucks.. yep.. Whose doesn't.. :)

Life as such is not beautiful.. It can't be.. Its not meant to be.. But there a million beautiful things in life to distract us from the pain and the struggle.. I find myself complaining way too much about life.. Things which seem insignificant to others appear like the biggest problem ever to me.. Well, for one,its happening to me and yeah its supposed to look that way so that I can work on it.. But the thing is I complain and don seem to work on it.. The chirpy cheerful the guy with a smile on the face has been missing for a while now.. Thank god I realised before he got wiped away from the face of the earth.. The thing is there's nothing wrong in complaining to yourself.. We have the freedom to.. What can we do about the things that we have no power to change, adjust.. yes but with a few complaints.. What worries me is I've been worrying my friends with my problems.. Not really but I feel paranoid at times.. My god 've been sayin so many silly things to so many of them recently.. reflections of my poor run in life.. The wheel rotates,time heals everything.. All I need to do is give time,time.. When time gets itself busy in changing the lives of people, I decided to change myself.. People find us amusing only when we lend a shoulder to their sadness and sorrow and not dump them with your own problems.. For instance, When a good friend of mine comes to me n says "Dude I got fired :( " and for which I must be supportive and wipe his tears.. Instead if i say " Man you're lucky.. You just got fired Atleast your math ma'am did not send you out" My good friend will turn to be my Ex-good friend.. Everyone's got problems.. Mine's no way bigger than any of those.. So I must stop complaining and I just wish i could Shut up when circumstances demand.. So 'm telling myself "STFU"

Cheers..

Vignesh.. :)

17 again..

Hottest summer ever, semester exams, IPL,World cup,.. hot and happening events all over.. but time keeps flying and one fine morning I turned 18 :) Its weird though,to say I'm 18.. 17 was a lot cooler :D Last year was fun.. THE FIVE started b'day bashes on my b'day ;) so I'm leading with two to one :D Entering college with fear of losing your good ones old ones.. We proved ourselves wrong and now we're in touch as good as ever :) One year has taught me a lot.. Though not much of `how to be` it has taught me much of `how not to be`.. 'm glad I learn from my life.. This year I've been cursing myself much.. to the extent that kids on the road started pointing me and `Ahh here comes sick fella :P` Now that I've been branded(lol) I wish I'd be less sicker this year ;) Being older being more responsible :D so they say but who cares.. being older means 'm allowed to have more fun.. and hoping for a lot of fun this year though I wish I could say 'm 17 again.. Thanks to all my friends who wished me a good year.. This year I promise myself more smiles,more fun,more friends and finally.... more hope :)

Cheers..

Vignesh.. :)

'm sorry I let you down

People always brag about being let down.. I agree it hurts to be let down by someone whom you trusted.. But one thing, its even more awful to realise that you've let someone down.. I did.. There have been things that hurt me.. hurt me like hell.. but nothing like this happened ever before.. may be it did.. but I realised it this time.. My God.. its something I'd regret for the rest of my life..I thought I'd grown up.. I considered myself old enough to decide things on my own.. I considered myself mature enough that I did not need suggestions anymore.. Well, I was wrong.. Though I did not know what was right for me, I sure did realise what was not right for me.. I might not have made the right decision.. But I know it'll make things better.. Definitely better.. I have always wanted to do things to please you.. To make you smile.. To make you proud for having me.. Whenever someone asked who my inspiration was, I'd not mention anyone in particular but would silently think of you.. I always wanted to grow into someone like you.. Tomorrow I want to be like what you are.. I know I won't be upto the mark.. but all I want to try is grow into you.. All the while doing things so as to please you.. Make you happy.. None but you.. But today you stand let down.. Let down by Me, whom you always counted upon, whom you always believed.. Whom you always dreamt about..Whom you always pinned your hopes on.. I'm sure I'll make up for this.. Time will heal all.. I will come up well.. But today.. All I can do to wipe this guilt off my mind.. and wipe those silent tears you shed.. is apologise.. I'm sorry for letting you down.. I'm really sorry for letting you down.. Dad, forgive me..Someday, I'll make you proud..

I know my dad'll never read this post.. This is all I wanted to tell him.. let him know.. Some day I'll make him proud..

Love

Vignesh..:)

Long day..

I'm exhausted.. well totally .. this is supposed to be a sunday and still it was the busiest day of the week.. I had my lab.. worst of all the things that happened today!! Stupid most experiment..

Manged to get the output.. Went to coll at eleven.. Was made to wait till one.. Was sitting all alone . with none around me within a radius of 50 metres.. (Thanks to my friends!!) And then there was this stupid lab.. Canteen closed.. No water,nothing to have a bite.. ****ing hot weather.. Sunday.. Trains crowded like hell.. Lesser frequency.. Tired tired tired..

I wish I could be a computer which can refresh with a single click.. Wish I were a camel.. Wish i were anything but me.. And once again.. I'm exhausted..

Cheers(Cheerless)..

Vignesh..:)