பினாத்தல்கள்

 எப்போதும் நினைத்ததுண்டு தமிழில் எழுத வேண்டும் என்று.. வாய்ப்பு இருந்தும் பயன்படுத்திக் கொள்ளவில்லை. இன்று பார்த்த கமலஹாசன் திரைப்படம் ஒன்று தமிழில் எழுதியே தீர வேண்டும் என்ற எண்ணத்தை ஏற்படுத்தியது.
அன்பே சிவம் என்று கூறி எழுத தொடங்குகிறேன் படிப்பவர்கள் மன்னிக்கவும்,நிறைவேறாத ஆசைகளில் ஒன்றாவது நிறைவேற்றிக்கொள்ளலாம் என்று முற்படுகிறேன்.

வகுப்பறையில் இன்று அதிகம் பேசிவிட்டேனோ என்ற எண்ணம் சில மணி நேரமாக உருத்திகொண்டிருகிறது.ஏனோ தெரியவில்லை புது இடமோ பழைய இடமோ நான் நானாகவே இருந்து விடுகிறேன்.சில நேரங்களில் பலனளித்தாலும் பல சமயம் எனக்கும் பிறர்க்கும் இடையூறாகவே  முடிந்து விடுகிறது.விளைவு இன்று நான் இங்கு பொலம்புவது.


பேச்சைக்குறை
பிறரை பேச விடு 
காதை கூர்மைப்படுத்து
அமைதி காத்தலைக் கடை பிடி


அந்த சில மணி நேரத்தில் கற்ற பாடங்கள் இவை


நண்பர்கள் என்றாலே எனக்கு இருக்கும் 3   பேரே நினைவுக்கு வருகிறார்கள்.அது இன்றும் என்றும் நிலைக்க வேண்டும்.நிலைக்கும்.புது இடம் புகுந்து சில நாட்களே ஆகிறது.இருப்பு கொள்ள வில்லை எனக்கு.சில நேரங்களில் எதுவும் வித்யாசபடவில்லை மற்ற நேரத்தில் எண்ணமோ குறை நெஞ்சை குடைகிறது


நண்பர்களைத் தேடாதே நல்ல நட்பைத் தேடு
தனிமையில் அறிவாய்  உன்னை நீயே


இசை எப்போதுமே துணை போகிறது.எல்லா நேரத்திற்கும் உகுந்த பாடல்களை எவனோ  ஒருவன்  எழுதிவிட்டு செல்கிறான்.


Facebook -உம வர வர பொழுது போக்க உதவ நிறுத்திவிட்டது.எனக்கும் தினசரி எழுத வேண்டும் என்று ஆசை தான்.எல்லா வற்றையும் விட எழுதுவதில் எண்ணமோ ஒரு சொட்டு மகிழ்ச்சி கூடவே எழுகிறது.ஆசை உண்டு எழுத வார்த்தைகள் வர மறுக்கிறது.அதுவும் நல்லதுதான் உங்களுக்கு ;)


கோவம்  வருகிறது.என் மேல்,சுற்றி இருப்பவர்கள் மேல்,இவர்கள் ஏன் இருக்கவேண்டும் என்று.இல்லாதவர்கள் மேல்,ஏன் இவர்கள் இல்லாமல் போகிறார்கள் என்று.


ஏனோ ஒரு நாள் விடுமுறை விட்டதன் பழி தீர்பதற்காக ,நான்கு நாட்களாக வெயில் பழி தீர்கிறது.வெயில் பேரை சொல்லி விடுமுறை விட்டால் கோவம் தீருமோ என்னவோ.


சில வகுப்புகளில் ஏன் தான் உட்கார்திருகோம் என்று தோன்றும்.கோவம் வரும்.படிப்பில் விளையாடுகிறார்களே என்று தோன்றும்.ஆசிரியப்பணி புனிதமானதல்லவோ? 
கேள்வி கேட்க ஆள் இல்லை.கல்லூரி என்றால் ஆசிரியர்கள் இப்படித்தான் என்று அமைந்து விட்டது மாற்றம்  வர வாய்ப்பும் இல்லாமல் போனது.இந்த நிலையிலும் சில ஆசிரியர்கள் உயிரை கொடுத்து பாடம் கற்பிக்கிறார்கள்.தலை வணங்க வேண்டியவர்கள் அவர்கள்


செய்திகள் பார்ப்பதை முற்றும் நிறுத்தி விட்டேன்.
ஏனோ அரசியலில் ஆர்வம் சற்றும் இல்லை
ஏமாற்றும் அரசியல்வாதிகள் 
ஏமாறும் மக்கள்
மாறப்போவதில்லை நாடு.


எல்லா பாடங்களையும் விட வாழ்கை பாடமே எனக்கு மிகவும் பிடித்ததாகவும் அடிக்கடி பேசப்படும் தலைப்பாகவும் இருந்து வருகிறது.ஏனோ எனக்கு நானே அறிவுரை கூறிக்கொள்வது  மிகவும் பிடித்தமான ஒரு வேலையாக உள்ளது
எழுதிவிட்டு நானே படித்து தோளில்  தட்டிக்கொள்வேன்.


புத்தகங்கள்,என்றும் எப்போதும் என்னுடன் வரக்கூடிய அறிவுச்செல்வம்
ஒரு மாதத்திற்கு இரண்டு அல்லது மூன்று புத்தகங்கள் படிக்கிறேன்.செலவிட நேரமும்  பணமும் அளவாக இருப்பதனால்.


சிறு குழந்தை ஒன்றை பேருந்தில் பார்த்தேன்.என்னை அறியாமல் சிரித்த தருணம்.பொக்கிஷம்.என்னுடைய நாள் முற்று பெற்றது.


தந்தையின் காதோரம் கதை சொல்லிக்கொண்டே வந்தது.நான் இறங்கும் வரையில் இறங்கிவிடதே என்று எண்ணிக்கொண்டே பயணித்தேன்.ஆசை நிறைவேறியது.


இன்றும் அதே இடத்தில் அதே பிச்சைக்காரன்.மற்றம் மானிடத்தத்துவம்   இல்லையோ?


எண்ணங்கள் பாய்கின்றன.ஒரு கோர்வையான பதிப்பு வந்துவிட்டதா  என்று படித்து பார்கிறேன்.பாதியில் நிறுத்தி,என்னுடைய ஆசைக்காக  எழுதுவது.எப்படி இருந்தால் என்ன என்ற எண்ணம்.


என்னை விட வயதில் பெரியவர்களுடன் அதிகம் நேரம் செலவிடுகிறேன்.அதனாலோ என்னவோ மெதுவாக உலகம் சுற்றுவது போல எண்ணம் எனக்கு.


எதோ ஒன்று குறைகிறது.ஏன் என்று சொல்ல வார்த்தை வர வில்லை.
எழுத நினைத்தேன்.எழுதி விட்டேன்.
ஆசை,பேராசை.நிறை வேறியது.


பற்பல எண்ணங்கள்.
நல்ல நாள்.
கொஞ்சம் மோசமான நாள்.
பல நிறங்கள் ஒவ்வொரு நாளும் ஒவ்வொரு வாரமும்.
நாளை ஞாயிறு.எழுதுகையிலே முகத்தில் மலர்ச்சி.
நாள் நிறைவுக்கு வருகிறது. 


இதுவும் கடந்து போகும்.




 








   








   

Life

There are so many lovely videos people keep sharing on Facebook 
I'm a big fan of those.. which make you laugh,cry and even think but all in a minute or two.I have always admired anything that is short and sweet.
People usually give me so many philosophies on life.There was this video which is helping me out right now to overcome the void in my blog page :D


Life as it beautifully says must witness us doing this..

Show up


Follow your heart


Find a new perspective


Have a sense of wonder


Find people you love


Set goals


Help others


Dance


Pamper yourself


Face your fears


Go to a museum


Exercise


Limit television


Get in touch with nature


Lighten up


Get a good night's sleep


Read books


Buy yourself flowers


Don't compare yourself with others


Be open to new ideas


Don't focus on negative thoughts


Focus on creating what you desire


Make time just to have fun


Keep up the romance in your life


Make a gratitude list


Love your Mother Earth


Want what you have


Be true to yourself

All these were wonderfully depicted in this video :)






Cheers.. :)

What not to do as an engineer..

This is a post I write for a blog that I'm a proud co-author of.The place where I originally wrote the post is this Engineering Revealed :) . Swathi (Sti),Prem and myself work as a team :) Swathi writes at All that you wanted to know. Visit and follow those as well.. 




                       Growing up, I never thought of becoming anything but an Engineer.Those were the days where families like mine provided only two choices,Engineering or Medicine.There were times when people would hold my hands as a kid,draw me close and ask what i wanted to become when I wanted to grow up and before i could come up with an answer they would give me choices: Engineer or Doctor? I'd say with a really big smile that I wanted to become a Computer Engineer.I still do not know what i was thinking at all those countless moments I chose to be a Computer Engineer.Though the choices seem so narrow and absurd today,it appears that I really wanted to be an Engineer, or let me put this way, I did not want to become a doctor.There were times we used to ask each other in class what we aimed at becoming.Usually the first day in every grade that I came through was meant to be self-introduction classes.There were teachers who revised alphabets for the whole of first week,which thankfully stopped with class six.Coming back,those self-introductory classes too found me choosing Engineering.I looked up at people who proudly proclaimed that they wanted to become police officers,pilots and collectors.Well,in short I grew up thinking Engineering is cool and Engineers are super heroes who saved the day.As the wheel spun I entered high school and I  thought it was time to decide on career,whatever I thought it meant that day. Through the ages,I took up a liking for Mathematics and Science,Physics to be precise.But then,like for Mechanical Engineering anything that moved did not inspire me.I thought all Aeronautical Engineers became pilots or astronauts and I ruled it out as I wanted to become neither.Higher Secondary school and I had to choose between three streams Computer Science,Biology and Commerce.I definitely did not want to become a Doctor and hence Bio was out.I had no clue about Commerce and hence I ended up choosing Computer Science.There came THE point where i had to pick a college and course.That was either probably one of the worst decisions I made or I turned a wonderful opportunity into one such devastating choice.This will be answered in the future.I picked Electronics and Communication Engineering(ECE).This was(is) supposed to be the creamiest of the courses and everyone I knew were doing ECE and I did not know which one to choose! And I admit I picked Electronics without being sure of what the consequences would be.That crashed for  numerous reasons,or I presumed it did.Now I am here after having chosen something that I wanted to become,Computer Science Engineering.

Inference(s):

The first line of this post is the best lie an Engineer can come up with.

You can see that the choices I made were based on what i did not like and not on what I liked.This is something that I wouldn't advise you to do.Thankfully the accidental charm lasted till higher secondary atleast till it came crashing down at college.

Always think of science as means of living and not as a part of life.Science in itself is a life that is visible only to those who live and admire it.Happy,honoured and proud to be one among the many.

Commerce is for those with lesser marks is a complete bullshit and I badly want that myth to change.Commerce is a brilliant field and people die to become experts and attain excellence in that field.

Always have short term goals,work on them.

Do not make choices when you are happy or emotional.

Hear everyone but listen only to the learned.

Have passion and never lose hope.Follow these two and you'll be thankful one day.

Never assume anything in your life.Failure and reality slaps you right on the face.

As a being,one have to endure failure at some point or the other.Cry but act upon failure.

Constantly try to achieve excellence.Success will follow.

Fall in love with Mathematics or forget being a good Engineer.

Swear to contribute atleast the slightest to the field you study.Never forget your teachers and most importantly the lessons you learnt.

Life can only be understood backwards.Never try to connect the dots beforehand.

Appreciate science.

Learn,love and live.

Always remember what not to do as an Engineer..

PS:You'd have noticed that the words Engineer and Engineering begin with caps in the entire post.The stress is to stress that I love Engineering and I'm happy that I call myself an Engineer.I cannot imagine myself doing anything other than Engineering.I forgive myself for all the poor choices I made.. for life is, but a learning process.

What the factorial !

Warning/Notification/WHATEVER: This post can be totally boring and one of the extremely useless 5-10 minutes you spend in your life.I do not take responsibility.I can be immensely boring at times(read as always) and can write texts that profoundly induce sleep for from a few hours to forever. Read at your own risk!

In most cases the things that can be counted do not count and the things that cannot be counted count

 said Albert Einstein,one of the greatest minds of the last century.The world today have become so materialistic and devoid of passion.In other words,the world today sucks! But there is no proof that the yesteryear world was being so passionate with whatever they were doing,but there are people who stand as examples.Today's philosophers,writers and even politicians(This was included to add humour) quote the legends of the past to have been more passionate and dedicated towards whatever they did.

Why are we regarded less passionate and dedicated? The answer,I believe,would be this.Today,most of us do things out of compulsion,survival instinct and a large crowd does certain things because others do the same.Placebo has no part nor right to decide your life.Its high time we realise this and become aware of the cheap,false pride we get in imitating others.Remember,doing something because someone else does it will never make you better than him.

The academics is being blamed everywhere.I understand that change cannot be brought about in a very short time but any visible progress will be appreciated by the like-minded.Change is the only thing that can bring about a change today.

This post is totally an outcome of me having listened to a few speeches lately that would definitely stir your very emotions if you appreciate the beauty of science and life as such.What is going on around the world in the name of education is far away from what a real valuable academic life can be.

Kids today deserve a better education.A proper childhood is what required to nurture creativity.Nobody can teach them to think.None can inject creativity.But the environment and the methodology can definitely create a better future.Passion,interest and love for what you do are the key ingredients to being successful at any level.

As said this is the toughest problem that lay.This needs more attention that global warming.

We are always far,far away from finding a solution to any problem till we have the answer at hands!

PS:I admit with not an ounce of shame that the title of the post was deliberately taken from the name of a team that participated in a competition that was attended by me recently.

PPS:If you have used the word that starts with F followed by asterisks, for a significant number of times while reading this post please do read the opening statement again.For those who did not,no words! I have found my alter ego!

Vignesh..

What made the charmer charm..

People you meet by accident stay with you longer than you think they will.. 

I should not call it an accident for now the person has a more than important place in my life.It was the summer of 2007.I had enrolled for computer classes.There were a few from my school and naturally I sat down for classes alongside those few.There were people i did not know and I'm eternally grateful to Sudarshan for having introduced someone who'd make my life better than the best it could have been.

Brilliance is an inferior  adjective to describe him.I was as comfortable with him as I could get to any close friend.There are no definitive limits to the topics I discussed,discuss and will keep discussing with him.Sound and worthy were his advices,ones you'd regret for having not followed and those that you'd feel gifted for having listened to.

Fun is what I'll describe every single moment with him.Be it teaching me Physics or talking about mundane stuff that one would not even think of about.The way we bond is something that always amazes me.Its not pre-meditated but we end up discussing serious stuff that change the very root of my opinions about significant things in life.

He had made me think twice.Taught me things which cannot be taught.I have learnt lessons from him that none,even the best of teachers can never make me understand.He makes me realise stuff that I wouldn't realise even upon reading volumes of books.

Each minute spent in his company counts as one of the most important moments that mean a lot to me.

Class twelve would have probably ended up disastrous but for his guidance,help and any other superlative that could fit in.He walked me through and would continue to do so.He could see through my eyes.he could say what was good for me.

He's that kind of person that people would long to have,people really need to have.

The kind who makes you realise you are wonderful.

The kind who makes you feel special.

The kind who makes you respect yourself despite the faults.

He is one of a kind.

Truly the 'JACK' of all trades.

Thanks for being there.I owe you one if not many..

..

Forever grateful..

Cheese-Charmer.. the name you gave me.The identity that exists.

Goodbye

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 Finally the day arrived,something which she was looking forward to for over five months.Excitement,fear,sadness.. she loved that rush of adrenalin.After all its only once in your lifetime that you get married.It was a sunday,as she wanted it to be.She wanted all her kith and kin to be present.Most of them had arrived early the previous evening.She was the first girl in the family after a generation and was loved by even the distant of relatives.She woke up early,real early.She did not sleep much actually.With her own excitement and those of friends and family who spent the night speculating about how wonderful her marriage life was going to be.Also she had her own dreams about her marriage,which had kept her sleepless for most nights in the last few months.


  The last few hours of her 'Daughter phase' flew like time never had.The knot was tied and the 'Daughter-in-law' phase begun.Thus started her journey as a wife and here she was at her mother's place for bearing her first child.The beginning of a new phase 'Mother'.




                                                     ~~~~~~~~~~
 Its been a while since she visited her childhood home.She had spent almost her entire childhood there.She still remembered the first few years they spent here.She was not the daughter of a millionaire,yet her father treated her like a princess.They were an ideal family,similar to the ones you see in advertisements and movies.Mom,Dad and a brother.Perfect two years difference with her brother,an elder one.The two year difference made sure she had a friend around her all the time.The place had two bedrooms.A small but a happy place.


 First day of her arrival.She was sitting on her brother's bed,waiting for her mom to bring her lunch.Was looking around,recounting those days as a kid.This was the room where she used to get ready for school.Lovely memories.She remembered the old study table which was as old as her.She started exploring the things on the table.Her brother hadn't changed much.Pens of so many colours,used,unused,decades old found a place on the table.Most of which were hers,she knew.She came across a mess of papers.It had greeting cards,letters(to her surprise) and others which had stuff written she did not understand.Among those was one which seemed crushed,mostly because it was folded and unfolded frequently.It was handwritten like most of the others,with the same tiny alphabets.


                                                       ~~~~~~~~~


 The big day had finally arrived.He wanted it to be the happiest day of her life.She always dreamt big.He wanted her to.He always promised her things at an age he did not even start college.He really wished he could keep all his promises.He thought he did.She did not complain.That made him sure.He woke up early,even before the sun was up.He hadn't really slept.Not only the previous night,but since she crossed the threshold age for marriage.He cannot be blamed.She was all he loved.She was all he lived for.


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I always wanted to say a few things to you,my little sister.You don't know how many times I call you this way every single day.You hate it when I call you that way don't you? Those first few days with your new mobile,I used to send 'Goodnight little sister' and get scolded by you in the morning.I don't remember the first day i saw you.I really wish I did.Got to know from Mom and Dad that the kept me waiting outside the hospital with Uncle because they did not want me to see Mom in pain.They did not know you could wipe away all the pain and sadness like you did for these many years and keep doing so.You defined the world to me.I write well,people used to say.But now I can't express what I want to.I always knew this day would come.I cry easily.I break down soon.May be I have cried more than you ever did.Wouldn't be a surprise.Considering that I cry everytime i see you crying,definitely I would've shed more tears than you.But all I wish is that I have wiped more of your tears than stood as a reason for.I still remember one of your birthdays,fourteen or fifteen,I was crying all night because I couldn't buy you anything.I still remember the first time I had to feed you dinner.You had mehendi on your hands.After that now and then I started feeding breakfast when you got ready to school.Those moments,I was the happiest on earth.I did not realise much till I reached class eleven.I lived every moment after that for you.To keep you happy.I cried more than you when your class ten results came.I fight hard with my tears everytime you cry to make you stop crying.Damn,I'm crying now!


The first time you hugged me was when Grandma passed away.Broke my heart.And then the day when you consoled me about college.That's one of the days I noticed how big my little sister had become.Those singing lessons you gave me.Really funny when I think about all that.We grew up together.We were infants together,teens together.Now we are two grown ups yet I feel like a kid all over again.


Wish we get to grow up once again.I'm really sorry for all the times I hurt you.I think i got you enough handbags and jeans you asked for.Will be eternally happy if you continue to ask me for more.


You have been the reason for my happiness for these many years,wish the other family,your new one feels the same after a while with you.


I have never said 'I love you' to you.But I have said that to myself more than a million times everyday.


You are the daughter I never had and you'll continue to remain the same..


I won't be giving this to you today.I don't want to see you cry for one more reason.


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She had the crushed piece of paper in her hand.It took a while for her to take all this in.Mom came inside with her plate.She asked why she was crying.She realised she was.Wiped her face.Did not speak anything.Hugged her tightly and cried even more.


                                                     
He stood on the terrace with the letter in his hand.Crushed it and put it in his pocket.


                                                   
Mom asked why.She did not answer.All she could do was cry.


                                                   
He heard her calling him.Wiped his tears,tried hard to smile.the knot would be tied in a few hours.The day had not yet broken,but he was.


                                It was time to say,"goodbye"

PS: I don't think I would be emotionally strong to write such a letter when my Little sister gets married,but if I write one it would certainly be this.She is fifteen now and she is all I got. Love you :)

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Because I can..

Just finished watching "Aayutha Ezhutthu" for the upteenth time.The movie gets better everytime I watch it.Its been long since I posted anything,couldn't find anything to write about,courtesy my vetti stint.Happy that it gets over today.Back to business from tomorrow.WeBlog's competition got me many comments and roughly hundred odd hits in a week.Amazing.Using internet without usage concerns.Something that makes me smile till the fifteenth of every month.


It was 'friendship day'.Received messages from people who remembered to add me in those groups when they got my number long back...It helps.


Got a message from Miss.Yeah-She-Is-Tall "happy friendship day :) ". Wish things would get back the same.They were good but not anymore thanks to Miss Yes-No-Maybe and myself.


Mr.Next-Seat-In-Class fell sick over the weekend.Our friendship day reunion was at his place.Had a hearty laugh.Was good spending time with people you hardly see.


Went out for dinner with friends on saturday.Mr.Volleyball was back for the weekend.Always good to meet friends.MS could not make it.Would have been nice if he had turned up.Last saw him on my birthday.Seems like ages ago.


Saw 'Inception' on friday,worth every penny.


Was chatting with Mr.Brains last night,was thinking about school days,class seven and eight with him.Those days were fun indeed.


Got a message from,Yes-No-Maybe.Did not feel like replying,just like the past two three weeks.Still wondering why.


Mr.Cricket,Big B,Psycho and Mr.100 are busy with exams.
100's mom's back from Malaysia.He certainly felt good.Keeps him up in good spirits.


College kicks off tomorrow.Keeping fingers crossed.


Planning of bonding with a long lost art: Putting pen on paper.Got brilliant ideas to write about.Have a few things planned.Thinking of discussing with BigB.Hope it comes out amateurish at the least.

Wondering why I'm writing this post
Wondering why I blog actually.
Only this pops up..


Because I can..




Cheers... :)